I created this website on Thanksgiving Day 2011. From November 2011 until today, I have stopped working on this website more than once, each time taking it offline until I could come back and work on it again. Happily, the website and I are back once more.

Please note, that the only time I stop working on this site, is that I am having a very hard time with my brain disorder and cannot give the attention to this website that is needed. Sometimes I just need to take care of me. Many times, it has also meant, that I have spent a great deal of time in bed.

The only thing that is constant in life is change. And what I have discovered about myself, struggling with a very serious health disorder, is that working on my website is very good therapy for me.

On Friday, August 8, 1997, I had a very severe meltdown which changed my life forever. I was a business leader at the time and a Producer/Host of Talk Programming. I was "on-air" talent on the radio and the Internet. I was also a Partner and a Shareholder of an Internet company looking to go public. I was on my way to national and hopefully international recognition of my work, when I crumbled into a sobbing breakdown and lost it all.

I was highlighted in all of our local papers. The last one was the New York Times. I can't begin to tell you how excited I was to make the New York Times. I had made the big time with that article. There was no stopping me now. My whole company was filled with uncontained excitement. The exposure I was receiving was spilling over into the exposure the company was receiving. We were ready to conquer the world.

Unfortunately, it was to be my last press exposure due to my breakdown. Also, my company closed it doors within the next year.

So from August 8, 1997 until today, I have been trying to get back on my feet and figure out what was wrong with me. I continue to move forward...sometimes walking and sometimes crawling. But thankfully, I finally have my answers and I have some peace of mind. That's why the website is up and running again.

I was 34 when this nightmare started. I am 54 now. I had a life and I lost it. Being broken by "mental illness" gave me a new life. The suffering I have been through has no words to describe it. It is something I had hoped I would never have to experience. But in that darkness, came my strength to share my journey, and hopefully spare you and your loved ones from suffering like I have.

That's what this website is all about. I created it so that no one would be alone anymore in their suffering. I have done most of the work on my own and getting the resources that I needed to stay alive. I am here with the sole intention of sharing everything I have done, so that you can use these tools as well, to make your life better.

Don't let anyone or anything keep you down. Honestly, the only person you can count on is yourself. If I didn't have me fighting for me, I would be dead. For whatever reason, I am a fighter and a survivor and I want to live.

So if this is you too...hang in there and check out my website. I will do everything I can to help you get out of your darkness too. If nothing else, you are not alone.

Please visit the above listed Mental Health Support Group LIVE chat room. You can stop being alone right now. Click on the above link. They will do what they can to support you.

All my love...

Deborah